I carry your Heart..

I heard this poem in the movie “In Her Shoes”. Cameron Diaz reads it to her sister on her wedding day. Its beautiful.

i carry your heart with me, i carry it in my heart.
i am never without it
anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling

i fear no fate,for you are my fate,my sweet
i want no world, for beautiful you are my world,my true
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows,
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart, i carry it in my heart.

Mother’s Day and me!

Its May8 again. Another Mother’s day and I think celebration is what all mothers look forward to. i have no clue what makes my mother happy.  She’s been in a different world ever since i lost my Dad. She feels free and wants to live a new life.I’m not saying she’s happy about my Dad, just that she never loved life when she was with him and always asked for something different. A different life, with a handsome man and all the money to live happily ever after. But she never mentions us in these dreams, its like she wishes she never had us in her life so she wouldn’t have had to cut us out .

Im glad to see her happy but it hurts that she doesn’t want us around.

She loves my brother( the youngest, still in school), but i think she’s lost the love for me and my sister. She often says she’s going to all she always wanted but never got the chance to and i feel its great for her.

Sometimes i feel I have lost my mother, though she still lives with us and hasn’t started her new life with anyone(still looking), but i miss being cared for and loved and pampered. Its not just that I’m not a kid anymore, its more like she’s not there even when she is.

On this Mother’s day I wish all her dreams come true, even if we are not a part of it. I wish her life of joy and happiness and health and love. I think she has given up her life and dreams till now for us and now its only fair in return to forgive her for giving up her love for us. I hope you are happy always.

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY MUMMA!