Me happy?
June, 6, 2008Listing to the song David Cook voice in the song “Still haven’t found what I’m looking for” and thought that’s where I am right now. I know I want happiness but where and how i know not.
When I was with my bf (now ex for the past 1 year), I always thought he made me happy, fell secure and I always wanted to show to everyone else what I had. I always wanted to change things about him and thought it qould make me happy if that happened. Strange but true!
I now realize happiness is not an object, its not a reaction to what people say to think about you. Its not an entity, its perhaps just a state of mind. When you love yourself, when you don’t want to change anyhting about yourself, when you are living life , when you are breathing the air and feeling the rain, its every moment of knowing you are where you are meant to be and you don’t retaliate anything and don’t fight yourself. Its knowing who you are and accepting it.
Sadly I’m not happy right now and I still want to change so many things about myself (majorly want to get slim). Hope I live in happy state someday soon and find a happy me.
Sometimes it’s better to wait for happiness to find you - it’s like a butterfly, it will eventually perch on you, and you’ll be found.